Pencarian Menuju Tujuan

“I just don’t care about him.”
But I fail to realize it earlier
That you become so worried about me
And want to keep that smile so badly
Please don’t ever think you say too much
‘Cause the more you say the sweeter it is
The lovelier you are

“I just don’t like anyone to hurt you now.”
Then don’t be one too
Face your fear and be there
For me and for you

“It’s not that I can’t see you, it’s I’m scared to see you everyday.”
What is there to scare about?
When we know how far we can go
When we remind ourselves to go with the flow

“I’m scare I’ll fall for you.”
Then you question my thoughts and my will
You let me recall what those two old people said
And once again, a dark cloud comes in a day
Don’t you understand I’m tired?

“You just pop out from nowhere into my life so suddenly.
Make me don’t know how to react.”
Isn’t a surprise in life when you least expect it actually wonderful?
We may have plan but to adjust when something comes is necessary
And that something can be someone...can be you, can be me

“Recalling back the first date. Can’t remember how we did it.”
Neither do I
You can blame the chemistry or the organic chemistry whatsoever
But it’s never on my list to purposely change anything
Not my intention, my direction, and especially not you
Regardless of everything and anything
I have enough seeing what I left behind
It’s my burden now

“I’m surprised you never met some one like this.”
Then where were you all this while?
What is that you actually want to hear, really?
How much should I assure you that you are special?
Because the impression I have is that you are doubting me
My sincerity
Or my integrity

“We can get very close, don’t you think so?”
At one point I feel you don’t want to be close to me
Which make me feel that I irritate you

“The last thing I want is to make you feel bad or so.”
At another point I feel that you don’t want to lose me
Which make me feel that I hypnotized you

“Just want to know your current state of mind.”
And yours is extremely confusing
I’m not trapped in my past
Not like a bird which just released from its cage
And it doesn’t really matter what I probably missed in the future
I treat you as who you are
Never a last option
If my words can’t convince you
Would you please see me in the eyes?

Then I say
Is it too much at stake?
Sentimental and melancholic are never good players
Their feeling is close at their hearts
No matter how logical and practical they are
And it’s getting even to the higher position when the night comes

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