Pencarian Menuju Tujuan

The moon is so bright tonight
And it has been a while since it disturbs my heart
I whispered your name in my prayer
Hoping for the sign which shows me the way
Because as much as I trust your judgement
Overestimating is the common mistake a guy make
While underestimating is my problem

It is you
Blaming the uncertainty
Bounded by the restrictions
Avoiding the conditions
Choose to be in denial

You ask yourself
You touch your heart
As I refuse to be part of my past again
Not anymore
Not fall for the same trap
And don’t tell me you don’t want me to feel it too
Because you drag me into that very thing
If you are facing a hard time choosing between being like who
Leaving you is the help I can offer for free

Know what you want first
Don’t start to fantasize if you never dare to work for it
I started to play with few hypothetical questions
So when the times come, I will be prepared
And never be off guard
Neither be irresponsible

The flowers are dying
Probably like how we supposed to be
Because end of the year comes faster than usual
Earlier than anybody ever thought
The history repeats is the last thing I ever wanted

When I decided to involve in such thing
I feel secure with the thought that we want it to be on the surface
We want it to be logical and temporal
We spend time with no heart come into the picture
Because you too will remind me to open my heart for the true one
But that’s before I know what you hide
Before I read
Before I heard

I have enough seeing a guy who leave a person
Only because he knew he had a chance waiting for him
I have enough listening to all the flowery words he gave
Because it never turn out to be real anyway
I have enough being merciful and forgiving
Because it didn’t give me any justice
The thought only is not enough
And will never be
I have enough seeing him leaving me
Because he can’t stand by me and protect me the way he should
I have enough knowing him being cheap and make a U-turn
Just like how my parents worried
I have enough burden and guilt to carry
And won’t be strong enough to go through the same thing ever again

I have decided that I will go and I go
Because people don’t fall in love with a person who say the right thing
They fall for the one who do the right thing

Do I feel anything?
Yes, betrayed
Not because of expectation of the future
It’s about the present
For people to fall for me is easier than the other way around
And as much as I can list all three that will make me consider
The more questions come now in the queue

Because when you had enough
It’s enough
One will never have everything
Priority is the key
Certain things need sacrifice
A lot of things actually
We just need to know whats worth our sacrifice
But before that
Get your shit together
You are seriously messed up

When you dare to say that you feel guilty for creating an illusive joy
And claiming you don’t feel numb
When you know you have done more mistakes than others
And being posesive while you have two in your hands
When a person didn’t do anything for something he knows is wrong
It’s a mistake by itself
Sometimes you will miss something
Or someone that you think will always be there
Be honest and listen to your heart
Else, you might miss the chance for something better

Fate never walks alone
It is pairing with the free will
Always do the right thing
As there are consequences
The choice is yours

~Right after “When I’m Gone” was shared
While listening to “The Hardest Thing” from Kiss 92 FM
And “Like a Fool” from my iPod music playlist~